2000 days of sobriety! I wouldn’t have believed anyone if they told me I would be more than 5 years into a sober life by now. It hasn’t been easy, and anyone who tells you I’ve had it easy would be a liar. I have fought tooth and nail for my sobriety and to get my life back on track after years of drinking and drug use.
Thankfully I am at a point in my life now, although not without its trials, where I can handle life better and with a much clearer mindset than before. The world seems somewhat surreal when I look back on where I was and where I am now. Living in a house with someone I had no business being around. Drinking daily, and nightly. No job, no prospects, no hopes. Destroying my life one piece at a time. Fooling myself into believing I was “free.”
Fast forward 2000 days later; I am healthy (somewhat), happy (most of the time), successful at my work (by my own accounts), and with someone who would move heaven and earth to be with me and take care of me (the majority of the time). I am living a life I can be proud of for the first time ever!
Although on the outside it may appear easy, it is anything but. I have to fight for my sobriety every single day. I have to keep it on the forefront of my mind so that I don’t get too comfortable or complacent and slip up. Yes, slipping up is a big fear of mine. Slipping up is a thing of sobriety. Mindsets can change and it can be easy to just pick up without thinking about it.
By making sure I am reminded every single day that I am at risk for relapse, I have been able to take each struggle head on and work through it. There have been plenty of those moments where I was one step away from picking up a drink. But I have knowledge of my symptoms, my triggers, and my own willpower to get me through. Something that has helped me through it is a reflection. Making sure I use each of those moments to better me and move me forward and equipped to handle the next time they come up.
Use your power of reflection as I have with mine. Bend it to your will and get through your life with a sober mind. Your mind is yours and you have the power to harness it, so do it. I did and look where I am now! Over 2000 days and counting of sobriety!
Here is a song to start you off or carry you through! Enjoy your life in sobriety as much as I have mine.
Just stand up
Just stand tall
Live the life that you were made for
And trust your feet
Stand the heart
Then break out from the circle of defeat
Face the fear, oh
Figures, Pur Mudd