When I first went sober I began drinking coffee. I always liked the smell of it but never enjoyed the taste. That was until I needed to replace the alcohol with something. Caffeine has been my upper for the last nearly 5 years. Coffee, Hi-Balls, 5-Hours, caffeine pills, crazy amount of soft drinks. Every single day. My body was having trouble functioning without it. I’ve recently began realizing it wasn’t a much better replacement to the alcohol. It controlled my life and my moods.
So I finally made the decision to get glasses again this last week. It has been way to long. I was first prescribed glasses back in 2010. I had glasses for about a year until they broke. At the time I was in no position to purchase another pair because I was straight broke and in a very low point in my life. After that few years I was finally in a position to get glasses again, but procrastinated on it instead. Fast forward to last Friday, and now I have 4 eyes again!
Last week was a bittersweet one for me. I went on very quick road trip with Richie to handle some business in Texas, where I was born. Although we were there on business, we took some time to try and visit some places from my childhood in Dallas, and some touristy things for Richie. It was bittersweet because on our way we stopped in a little town named Sulphur Springs, population 15,000, and every bit of the stereotypical Texas that people commonly see the state as. Although I know both sides of Texas; the major metropolitan city of Dallas that is progressive, and then the very ‘red’ rural side.
I am confident in saying that most everyone has had some issues with the way they look at one point or another in their life. I am also confident in saying that those same people have thought about changing themselves to fit the mold brought on by society. Insecurity in the way you look is common. However, what you do with that insecurity is what sets you apart from others.
Music has been a huge influence in my life, as I’m sure it has been in your life as well. It has meant even more during my sobriety. Music has a way of consuming you and helping, or hindering, you in your life. Depending on the situations you are going through, songs can be interpreted in different ways, negative or positive. I have put together a list of my favorites that have been mainstays throughout my sobriety. I hope you can find a message in these that helps you through the good and bad days.