A while back, November more precisely, I decided to take an exit from Facebook. This was a decision as a result of quite a bit going on in my family and in the world as a whole. Facebook became an overwhelming negative in my life. One that took its toll on me. I can’t say it was anyone elses fault, because my perceptions of events are my own and I let a lot get to me. I am human. However, I decided to remove that aspect of my life to hopefully better myself.
I felt the need to share after seeing many disappointing replies to comments lately in a group I participate in on facebook in regards to programs that can assist in sobriety. Please keep in mind that this is my personal experience with AA and is not indicative of every other person who chose not to follow AA’s program.
I can’t believe I find myself writing about Carrie Fisher again. Especially so long after her death and cremation. Unfortunately so many things seem to come to light once someone is gone. In this case it was heartbreaking and difficult to swallow. as you may have already heard, Carrie’s autopsy and toxicology report became public record. It showed she had a cocktail mix of cocaine, heroine, and ecstasy in her system at the time of her death. This will unfortunately tarnish her work to some people, especially the media who will allow her lifes work advocating for mental illness education and recovery from addiction. It has already begun. Most networks are only reporting on her toxicology report and not really mentioning the work she did while she was alive to bring transparency to mental illness and also recovery from addiction.
When I first went sober I began drinking coffee. I always liked the smell of it but never enjoyed the taste. That was until I needed to replace the alcohol with something. Caffeine has been my upper for the last nearly 5 years. Coffee, Hi-Balls, 5-Hours, caffeine pills, crazy amount of soft drinks. Every single day. My body was having trouble functioning without it. I’ve recently began realizing it wasn’t a much better replacement to the alcohol. It controlled my life and my moods.
So I finally made the decision to get glasses again this last week. It has been way to long. I was first prescribed glasses back in 2010. I had glasses for about a year until they broke. At the time I was in no position to purchase another pair because I was straight broke and in a very low point in my life. After that few years I was finally in a position to get glasses again, but procrastinated on it instead. Fast forward to last Friday, and now I have 4 eyes again!