I had a pretty significant breakthrough today. Something new I experienced in my sobriety. Over the last 24 hours I have had three major events thrown my way. Two pretty significant life changing things, and one minor thing that is semi-unrelated, but significant enough to give me pause.
Usually my first response is to get very mad, wallow in my anger, lash out, and then think about ways to not want to go throw it all away and drink. For the very first time in my sobriety, I reached right for my Bible to find the Word that would apply to these situations. Also, this is the first time in my sobriety when I have been thrown a lot at once that I hadn’t thought about drinking!
I didn’t realize I had done this at the time because I was consumed in my thoughts and prayers and trying to figure out how to handle the issues I was facing. I got home later tonight and realized I had not thought about drinking once during this time frame. Sure, I go days where I don’t think about drinking, because that’s what has become my life, sober and alcohol free, but I had never disregarded drinking completely during tough times.
I felt my dedication pay off. But, as I have been thinking about it, I have also had to remind myself that this doesn’t mean I am cured of my disease. I still have the rest of my life to live and plenty more life changing events to come. I’m only 31, but I am proud that after 4+ years of sobriety, I finally had that defining moment. I always thought about the day this would happen, and now it’s finally happened, I can really see for myself how far I’ve come in a different way.
After this breakthrough I still have to manage to navigate the events that have happened, which I promise I will divulge when things start moving. I am reminding myself that my journey in sobriety and faith is a lifelong one, not just to get to a point where I happened to not think about drinking for once. I also have to remind myself that I need to be grateful that the things that have happened in the last day are minor compared to what others may have to deal with. The events may make me uncomfortable, and angry, but I still have a roof over my head, food in my belly, and a loving and caring support network.
Now I navigate the immediate future knowing that it is possible to not think about alcohol every single minute of my sobriety!
In my search for guidance and answers during my Bible study earlier today, I found the following scriptures that applied to the situations at hand.
See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the wilderness and streams in the wasteland.
Get rid of all bitterness, rage and anger, brawling and slander, along with every form of malice. Be kind and compassionate to one another, forgiving each other, just as in Christ God forgave you.
Life's Curve Balls
Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
When met with events in my life, I also like to find a song that relates to what I am feeling.
Even when my strength is lost
I’ll praise You
Even when I have no song
I’ll praise You
Even when it’s hard to find the words
Louder then I’ll sing Your praise
Even When It Hurts (Praise Song), Hillsong UNITED