Reemergence

Ronnie Big 4 : Mental Illness, Bipolar Disorder, Choice, Decisions, Facebook, Friends, Self Care, Self-Awareness 0 Comments

A while back, November more precisely, I decided to take an exit from Facebook. This was a decision as a result of quite a bit going on in my family and in the world as a whole. Facebook became an overwhelming negative in my life. One that took its toll on me. I can’t say it was anyone elses fault, because my perceptions of events are my own and I let a lot get to me. I am human. However, I decided to remove that aspect of my life to hopefully better myself.

Legacy

Ronnie Alcoholism, Big 4 : Addiction, Big 4 : Mental Illness, Bipolar Disorder, Celebrity, Life, Mental Illness, Powerlessness, Recovery, Stigma, Struggle, Substance Abuse 0 Comments

I can’t believe I find myself writing about Carrie Fisher again. Especially so long after her death and cremation. Unfortunately so many things seem to come to light once someone is gone. In this case it was heartbreaking and difficult to swallow. as you may have already heard, Carrie’s autopsy and toxicology report became public record. It showed she had a cocktail mix of cocaine, heroine, and ecstasy in her system at the time of her death. This will unfortunately tarnish her work to some people, especially the media who will allow her lifes work advocating for mental illness education and recovery from addiction. It has already begun. Most networks are only reporting on her toxicology report and not really mentioning the work she did while she was alive to bring transparency to mental illness and also recovery from addiction.

Caf-fiend

Ronnie Alcoholism, Big 4 : Mental Illness, Bipolar Disorder, Manic, Substance Abuse 0 Comments

When I first went sober I began drinking coffee. I always liked the smell of it but never enjoyed the taste. That was until I needed to replace the alcohol with something. Caffeine has been my upper for the last nearly 5 years. Coffee, Hi-Balls, 5-Hours, caffeine pills, crazy amount of soft drinks. Every single day. My body was having trouble functioning without it. I’ve recently began realizing it wasn’t a much better replacement to the alcohol. It controlled my life and my moods.

Texas

Ronnie Alcoholism, Big 4 : Addiction, Big 4 : Homosexuality, Big 4 : Mental Illness, Bigotry, Bipolar Disorder, Childhood, Closure, Family, First Drink, Homophobia, Homosexuality, Insecurity, LGBT, Milestones, Past, School, Struggle, Substance Abuse, Texas 0 Comments

Last week was a bittersweet one for me. I went on very quick road trip with Richie to handle some business in Texas, where I was born. Although we were there on business, we took some time to try and visit some places from my childhood in Dallas, and some touristy things for Richie. It was bittersweet because on our way we stopped in a little town named Sulphur Springs, population 15,000, and every bit of the stereotypical Texas that people commonly see the state as. Although I know both sides of Texas; the major metropolitan city of Dallas that is progressive, and then the very ‘red’ rural side.

I Hate My Face

Ronnie Affirmation, Alcoholism, Appreciation, Big 4 : Mental Illness, Humility, Insecurity, Positivity, Self Care, Self-Awareness, Tips 0 Comments

I am confident in saying that most everyone has had some issues with the way they look at one point or another in their life. I am also confident in saying that those same people have thought about changing themselves to fit the mold brought on by society. Insecurity in the way you look is common. However, what you do with that insecurity is what sets you apart from others.