When I first went sober I began drinking coffee. I always liked the smell of it but never enjoyed the taste. That was until I needed to replace the alcohol with something. Caffeine has been my upper for the last nearly 5 years. Coffee, Hi-Balls, 5-Hours, caffeine pills, crazy amount of soft drinks. Every single day. My body was having trouble functioning without it. I’ve recently began realizing it wasn’t a much better replacement to the alcohol. It controlled my life and my moods.
Last week was a bittersweet one for me. I went on very quick road trip with Richie to handle some business in Texas, where I was born. Although we were there on business, we took some time to try and visit some places from my childhood in Dallas, and some touristy things for Richie. It was bittersweet because on our way we stopped in a little town named Sulphur Springs, population 15,000, and every bit of the stereotypical Texas that people commonly see the state as. Although I know both sides of Texas; the major metropolitan city of Dallas that is progressive, and then the very ‘red’ rural side.
I am confident in saying that most everyone has had some issues with the way they look at one point or another in their life. I am also confident in saying that those same people have thought about changing themselves to fit the mold brought on by society. Insecurity in the way you look is common. However, what you do with that insecurity is what sets you apart from others.
When in mental illness recovery, we thrive and grow from peoples stories of perseverance and ability to stay stable through times of adversity. We learn new ways to manage episodes that we live with daily. When we can also hear stories from people who live in the spotlight, in one way or another, through all of the stress, criticism, adversity, and more, we take much strength from that. The people who live in the spotlight and can still manage their mental illness diagnosis, is something to admire.
A long time ago, in a galaxy far, far away…