Money management hasn’t always been my strong suit. In fact, I have spent a scary amount of money on the most frivolous thing. At one time my habit was spending countless amounts of money on iTunes for every song I thought I ever wanted. It has transitioned to one thing after another over the years, but I never really understood why I couldn’t kick the habit like all the other adults in my life. I felt immature and careless. I wanted to be better about my money, but couldn’t ever seem to find a way.
As you know, music get’s me through so much! The highs, the lows, the lulls, all of it. Numerous studies have shown, as if we actually needed them to know this, that music can help set a tone for moments in your life. It changes the way you remember them, feel about them later in life, and appreciate or dislike them. Through the years since my first diagnosis of being bipolar, I have found solace in music. I have put together a list of 10 of my favorite songs relating to bipolar, or that feel somehow connected, to me. They are broken into 2 sections, songs for the manic moments, and songs for the depressive moments. Enjoy!
Most all of us have felt unappreciated and looked over at one time or another in our lives. If you haven’t, I’d venture to say you are superhuman and I need to find out what you’re doing! Although I do what I do for God, I sin by also doing it for personal selfish gain, acceptance, love from someone alongside God. This is something I struggle with daily. Even though we are clearly taught not to do things out of selfishness, but in humility. (Philippians 2:3-4) This can easily be seen as a form of idolatry. Idolatry of emotions that you feel, or feel you are owed, from someone else.
From time to time we all need time to ourselves to look at our lives, what we have done, where we are now, and where we want to head next. Recently I began doing this. I like to reset, to put it plainly. I had reached a breaking point. Led on by a heavy work load, mental stability (hitting one of my very low, lows), and overall need to reevaluate some situations in my life to make my life better.
Why was I given this mind? It seems that at every turn it is trying to sabotage me! When I’m happy, when I’m sad, when I’m sleeping, for God’s sake, I always feel like I need a drink. It really hit a point tonight. With the stuff that I am dealing with at work, being away from my family and friends, moving around so much over the last year (4 states!), and what seems like a never ending multitude of things, I was able to come home tonight in a decent mood, even with a very rough start to the day.