It never fails. When stuff seems to be going really good, something always comes up to put me right back where I seem to belong. I’ve gotten lots of good news lately. Good job changes, moved into a great new apartment, and about to celebrate 5 years sober when I turn 32. I wake up this morning to get thrown something from left field. I can’t say it wasn’t fully expected. I always knew this particular part of my life would reach a precipice one day. Unfortunately, it hit a bit harder than I expected.
Suicide has been a hot topic lately. More so than in past years. A staggering number of celebrities have taken their lives over the last couple of years and it has since put suicide at the front of conversations again. Because of this, you have the inevitable blaming of the victim themselves. I would say often times it is a result of lack of knowledge of mental illness, but I can resoundingly say it is 100% the result of not knowing anything about mental illness or suicide. This extends to even those who have a loved one who died by suicide. Just because it affected you, it doesn’t mean you understand it. Therefore you have no place to blame the victim. It’s paramount to blaming the victim of a sexual assault. Let me explain before you jump on me for the comparison.
I can’t believe I find myself writing about Carrie Fisher again. Especially so long after her death and cremation. Unfortunately so many things seem to come to light once someone is gone. In this case it was heartbreaking and difficult to swallow. as you may have already heard, Carrie’s autopsy and toxicology report became public record. It showed she had a cocktail mix of cocaine, heroine, and ecstasy in her system at the time of her death. This will unfortunately tarnish her work to some people, especially the media who will allow her lifes work advocating for mental illness education and recovery from addiction. It has already begun. Most networks are only reporting on her toxicology report and not really mentioning the work she did while she was alive to bring transparency to mental illness and also recovery from addiction.
When in mental illness recovery, we thrive and grow from peoples stories of perseverance and ability to stay stable through times of adversity. We learn new ways to manage episodes that we live with daily. When we can also hear stories from people who live in the spotlight, in one way or another, through all of the stress, criticism, adversity, and more, we take much strength from that. The people who live in the spotlight and can still manage their mental illness diagnosis, is something to admire.
A long time ago, in a galaxy far, far away…
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