We have all heard that common quote, “We are only as sick as our secrets,” although no one can really pinpoint who originally said it. It has been dated back as early as shortly after Christ’s death. Personally, I don’t like the way that particular saying is worded, so I tend to gravitate to using Paul Tournier’s quote, “Nothing makes us so lonely as our secrets.”
It speaks to me on a level that few quotes do. I felt so lonely when I was hiding who I was or pieces of my life, or things I downright lied about. I felt I had to keep them a secret because no one would understand or people would not want to be associated with me because of them. I have learned that on some levels that this is true, but the true friends who see the whole picture have stuck around, and for that I am grateful.
As my blogs title says, “Free From Secrets,” I am working on getting some of my biggest secrets put out there so I can let go of the hurt, the anger, the embarrassment, the worry that comes with them. Holding them in has done more harm than good in my life and I want to shed them.
Below are the secrets I have reveled so far. I don’t have any set schedule on when I reveal one of them, I just write them as I come to them and it can depend heavily on how I feel at the moment. Always sober, but sometimes mad, frustrated, sad, afraid, who knows what really causes me to want to write, but they will come out in time.